Trust.

I don't like being a 'fool' I told you what I tell you, at the end, ppl come tell back me what  I told you. Its a circle? Ppl simply tell them their thing because they do trust on you. But not tell for fun. I'm not that moron. Want tell and don't want tell repeat this like few time. If I do so, there must be difficulty for me to tell. I wanna share  with the ppl I trust and respect the most. But at the end, I don't want get the extra feedback from other ppl. I stop my mind for telling also because if that ppl don't care why for I that ppl? You think this ppl will care? There might few thing come out, he care,he don't care and he don't care + backstap on you. 1/3chance  you will get the answer that might comfort you well.

And do not simply make this kind of joke. It lame. And what if ppl make this kind of joke with you? I dunno how differ joke or true. So now I not going to care everything even it's real. I will not ask, I just tell what I heard. I won't simply add in comment. If I tell you something, there must be a real thing that I heard from other.  P/s I don't creating story. Because I'm not a story creator.

Know

Exhausted life..
Simply dunno what should do, what to do anymore. My mind doesn't work well nowadays. Don't want to think, don't want to feel, don't want to know, don't want to talk. Just felt some of the ppl come for me for a certain reason, I know but I don't wanna give reaction. This "know" make me think really lot. I tired..

Guideline

I found guideline. From what my friend said I think too much. I do hope I think too much. Now I oni want to have my own life let me finish my education k? I dont want involves in " relationship" this term. I think now im better without it. Huehue . But seriously I dunno how to analyze joke and truth ady. Is I too noob to analyze or ppl are good in making joke/tease. I think I do try understand the "joke/ truth" but it doesn't work. It make me think that should I change my attitude toward ppl? More coldness pls! O.o I dont want involves in any A,B,C relationship no matter is just kidding or what please treat your gf nice, stop this kind of " joking" , and I dun want go back the old life.. Talk with my friend, it lead Me feel that I never learned from my past.. I know all these thing, but I fail to learn from it.. Hmmm. Think so much can't help. But my mind still lead me to these ,_,
I think being sociable is good. So... That I can think Everything and everyone are joking. :D huehuehue

O.o

My brain told me it simple but it not simple while I'm not going to pay any rasuah zzz . Aha ! But seriously they need to fix their car :@ cuz when I dint free gear, and my leg leave the clutch, dint touch it at all, unexpected? Surprisingly?  the car engine dint mati... Supposedly the car will sei fo one ma when your leg leave the clutch when your gear still in 1.While my leg still tekan the clutch, the car not move at all!! And while I my leg not touching at all, ONI tekan oil , it start moving !!! That isn't a manual, that is toy car !!!!!

Mind can control , manage, estimates , decide everything, but sadly it cannot feel.. Pain also one of the 'feel'.
It might help you make the right decision or choice, you rely it to help you make choice, you might choose the right one, you might also can create feeling . But it created by your mind. Hope it fit what human want. Enjoy life with peace.

tuh dey

Still... cannot leave here. Lol . Useless sia. Like 4 year or 3 year adi . Dun care whatever ppl say.. still my place. I just wanted to share what I want to share, what thing I experienced before. I don't lie. Lie is lame. I hate liar so I won't be one of them. Lie might can make ppl happy, but not for me. At least I think like this. Hope tomoro will ok ba. Keep fail to masuk gear today when doing three turn point. SIGH. Bless me. Love you dad. Thank for keep fetching me no matter how busy you are. .Peace.