Yi Lin's story

I will try my best .... to prove
I really dont know what i can write.. more to... that my personal problem?

Honestly, my life is dramatic. and i can always feel what those "special" story coz i can felt it in my real life. and this make me grow up a lot.

I would like to know what impression of me for you guys? annoyed? sombong?
btw i still the yi lin i want to be and it supposed to be.

my background, i think some of my close friend will know about it. XD coz i geh po?
How i come? Owh, My mum pregnant "accidently" and she still eating the birth control pills. and she ate pills because doctor found out that her body still cannot afford to pregnant second times. but me still come this world without "permission" .

What she do? she will abort the second baby supposingly coz her body super weak, this might endanger her life. so my parents considered and booking for the abortion service.

Last decision? Doctor advice her to take the abortion operation, he not suggested my mum pregnant with that certain health condition even though found out the second baby is healthy even my mum ate a lot pills. before enter the operation room, my mum change her mind, and decide to born the second baby. ans thus i was born, and.. the pregnant process is hard... thanks mom

last time,My dad's income is super low and not constant, this make him can't study also. and same to my mom side, my mom's dad is penjudi and he likes beer, so study? impossible. so my parents's expectation on their children is high.

since young, I did go some house teaching tuition. but it expensive, so , bcoz of this she change a lot places to find the cheap, good, and near my place. my education is going better until .... I reached 13 years old. the place doesn't supply tuition for secondary student. so they find another tuition center... yea. silibin side, the second floor of public bank. ITＳＵＣＫＳ. i can tell u this. my result straight drop. and I stop taking tuition until form 3, PMR, my economic still not that good, but i successful beg my mum to let me take tuition... at steven. MATH. actually that times my math from GAGAL straight improve to A. I am those ppl that must put a lot effort to understand the studies, if not another GG for me. and this thing moved on to form 5 i still taking one tuition MATH and ADD MATH. so still A. XD but other overall is pass and ok. except sejarah. = =

my parents is those no matter whoever say that thing is good, they will persuade themselves that is good, and start to do it. at first they persuade me to study form 6 but i choose UTAR.
My parents love me lot, they know they cant persuade me, so will sp me. ofcoz i love them too. I sacrifice drawing this course coz they said that no future.. ARGH , when i standard 4 im taking drawing tuition. WOHOO. i love that hell much. but this tuition maintain like few month, then they dint want me to go anymore coz my siblings wanted to stop it, so i have to follow also.

last time my eng is bad, super bad, as in cannot speak it in whole sentence and oni can understand some simple word. English movie without subtitle can kill me.. and since i go for uni, i start talking and type in eng, ya, it still bad, but at least can bring out the message i wanted to share. DOnt speak eng with my families member, they cannot understand at all. :') but..... i still love them.

when come to relationship, i met a lot of "bf" but for my reality bf, i met my second bf in kp, third, and the current one. relationship it colouring my life with pale , black, rainbow and now it's red. i dunno why I named  it as red relationship. red, dont u feel like, It so powerful? and encouraging? hahaha at least i think so.
my current bf, the way i met him, the way he communicate , and what thing he faced are letting me know I'm no longer a little girl, I'm 21. ya. 21. Even we facing some problem, but I still cherish what i had? have. He is a gift. from god.

phew, I start regretting why am I so playful last time, I'm not those potential and talented child. so trying harder. now still trying. and I am the oni child study, my sister and bro gave up education long time ago. so I... dun want disappointed my parents even i'm not those ..... smart student. I'm trying hard. phew. i dun really know what am i sharing, more to tell u guys my life. hahaha. It's interesting.

But somehow i shouldn't let this affect me :)) Mr.snoopy, I didn't want to give up that fast. I would like to do anything .. to prove that .... actually i dint know what i can prove. use result :) The comparison is lose-lose situation, everyone got their special personality, I'm not the one ur parents want, I cannot reach ur level, But i will try my best to be the one they wanted... Just hope that you are happy :) nothing is impossible and hard. AND I'm strong.